tired

I am not quite sure I remember the last time I bounded out of bed ready to face the challenges of a new day.

Now it is more of a (expletive of choice to be supplied) moment as I realise that I need to dash out of bed and do all the things that need to done before the girls surface and the battles of the new day begin.

As an aside my girls like to start the day fighting and bickering.

What happened to those mornings of feeling invincible and alive and not needing to be caffeinated? Am I remembering incorrectly? I just wonder if I was having someone else's memory and being nostalgic for something I have not experienced. I am reading some mind-expanding stuff and am married to a Sci-Fi addict so these thought appear at intervals.

Did age make me its slave? Are the lines and wrinkles the character and reward for living the way I do? Not that exciting but busy, should you be interested. Was I ever that energised?

I could take a more holistic approach to being tired and change my diet, exercise more (it is shamefully lacking at present due to (excuse of choice)), drink less caffeine and read less at night. Where is the fun in that, I ask?

Being tired is a state of mind. I mind being tired so I am off to make a cup of tea to wake up then read my book.

cough cough splutter

.. always good when you are about to board a plane and head to a wedding. If I don't get quarantined or at least sat on by a burly member of security.

It is a chesty cough that makes my laugh sound like Mutley.

I have to play at said wedding so hope not to hurl. It is a short piece and is gorgeous so hope I do it justice. Lyrics were a bit dodgy in places but I shan't elaborate.

Have a fab dress, a daughter who is flower-girl and a new book for the plane- cool.

Speak when I get back. Don't miss me too much.....;)

Musical ADD addendum

I have been thinking long and hard about my iPod reference and have come up with a product that would solve all my musical woes and improve my attention span.

I call it the iPod Touchy- it can feel the vibrations through my hands and knows what mood I am in and can make a musical judgment based on its reading.

If I am feeling pre-menstrual then it will mix Metallica, ambient noises and sappy lyrics with more Metallica or Pendulum and hand over the chocolate.

Happy and bouncy- dance music.

Maudlin- it will decide as I am not short of less than cheery music. Placebo always makes me feel better.

Just a thought.

Musical ADD

I think I am suffering from musical ADD and I am blaming the iPod.

Gone are the days when I listened to a whole album. Now I am lucky if I hear an entire track; the skip button gets used far too often.

My attention span is shot and tracks I used to like are lucky if they get past 2 minutes. I notice this most when I am in the car and the iPod setting is random but each track that comes up seems to be not what I am looking for (cue U2).

I am not sure if I am the only one who seems incapable of concentrating. We are so used to immediate gratification that we seek it at every opportunity.

I also made a few compilation CDs for a friend who wanted her music tastes to be brought into the 21st century. Was I able to listen to the fruit of my labours? No. I skipped through most of the tracks again.

What to do? Maybe I just need to sit down and make a concerted effort to listen to a whole CD. I could add a reward, such as chocolate.

Maybe I just need some new music that makes my pulse race and doesn't want me to skip tracks at the first opportunity.