Rambling

While there is relative peace and the 2 warring factions (the girls) of the household have reached a temporary truce I can ramble.

I came to the conclusion that most successful blogs have a point and purpose and the rest of them are left as there are no defined parameters. Therefore the reason this is not successful as it meanders.

I ramble because I am at an odd stage in my life. I am directionless and crave work but am so entrenched in school stuff that only a part time job could work. I have been out of the work game for so long that I would have to start at a much lower level or be deemed too qualified for a relatively unskilled job.

Being at home with the kids is like perpetually being in a waiting room without knowing when the next mode of transport will arrive and where it will be headed. You just don't know what is around the corner but it could be a great adventure. Then again you could be stuck and never go anywhere but wish you had.

I have not lost my self of sense rather lost a whole perspective on the world outside. I have a feeling my views have become more conservative as I have aged but can be just as immature as any given situation demands. Is that just getting older though?

I do not know what to do professionally and have probably missed that boat. Oh well. I have kept busy writing resumes amongst other things. I know I need to be in a classroom teaching but who and what?? I love teaching adults but like other sides of the field positions are not really there. I have a knack of creating a job for myself by being loud and opinionated so people assume I am an advocate for whomever.

Teaching is how I define myself. I started a study group for 7 year olds as I needed the buzz. Thank heavens there is a a semester of high school teaching on the horizon. I know I will love it. I will feel I have come home and will thrive on its energy and moody teenagers. Hey I can be moody so better practice. I will feel alive once again.

I will teach again and change the world but have got to get the younger one to Kindergarten first. Only 10 months and counting. I will conquer the universe but will fit it in between ballet, gymnastics, play dates and the PTA.